Things have been good this week. My baby boy welcomed me from London with a shy smile and swinging legs. You’d have thought he was nervous or something! I eased myself into his space because last time I left him with his grandparents, he wouldn’t come anywhere near me for a few hours. It was heartbreaking but expected behavior. Apparently, kids make it personal when you go missing. So within minutes, my little dude was pushing his toy truck around the kitchen with me and making sure I didn’t leave his side. Even for a second. I don’t mind. Do you have any idea how much I missed those mischievous smiles? Starry brownies were the cherry on the top.
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My dad and I took a quick trip to London this week. I was prepared for cold sharp weather but never in a million years did I imagine we would get to experience a little snowfall. Even the locals were surprised. I woke up that first morning, peeked out the window and then sprinted to my dad’s room. Watching the snow fall under the warm yellow road lights was magical. Thank you London for that precious memory. My parents lived in London-Croydon- for most of their lives. They moved over five houses before deciding that Cyprus would make a better family nest. They haven’t gone back in 27 years. Watching my dad’s face as we boarded the tube and walked out onto Westminster Bridge was priceless. How strange and big and different it all seemed to him. It was fun to watch, I tell you. We walked past landmarks that had him reminiscing, giving me the wonderful opportunity to learn more about what it seems was a fascinating life. I was the one who was about to experience something new though when we took on the London Eye. To be honest I’ve always thought it might be a bit boring but boy, was I surprised. I got to stretch my camera lens a bit, which of course made me one happy traveller. Next on the itinerary was Oxford Street and more importantly, the Christmas street decorations which floor me every time. Five days well spent. Thank you dad! And thank you to my uncle Achilleas who made everything a lot easier. . .
My mood seems to brighten up once rainy days and chilly nights creep up. Any wonder why? I am a utter romantic when it comes to Christmas. I have beautiful memories of December days in a cosy home filled with music and cooking. My parents went out of their way to ensure we had a magical time even insisting on pretending to be a certain someone with bags of presents until I was 15! Papa and I are going to do our best to make sure that this little boy gets the same beautiful experiences.
The question always lingers as they watch Georgie: So ready for another one? I’ve caught myself giving various answers to this dubious question. There’s ‘someday’, ‘in two years’ and then there’s ‘never.’ Needless to say, the latter is met with a sad look and the inevitable ‘why?’ I instantly regret being so honest. But it is true. A lot of the timeI am happy with just the three of us. I just don’t see another baby fitting into this picture. I can’t say I particularly miss those first few months, the non-stop breastfeeding, sleepless nights and the overall haze. Georgie was a restless baby, catching me completely off-guard even though I had cared for my sister’s children. It scared me, to be honest. I didn’t expect it to be so hard. Everyday, I would grieve the loss of my independence. I can’t say I was depressed but then again, many new mummies are but just don’t know what the hell is going on.